Desire the Prohibited?

Desire, Desire

Burn like ire...

Nobody wants you

Nobody needs you

You are nothing but,

Sadness disguised as happiness 

short-lived gain through bitter struggle

With the fall of discipline, 

you nurture a sufferer...

Letting go of you is to extinguish you 

or else... we too, burn like fire. 

Have you ever had that inexplicable desire for something you know will do you no good? I know I have. That one thing know you can't get, is that one thing you really want - it's not because you actually desire it, but because you know its not for you. It has been refused to you. That very thing causes the most amount of disturbance because you are not upset that you don't have it, but instead that it has been prohibited. 

In the Buddhist way of life desires are seen as greed - one of the seven sins. But how I see it, is that correct desires fuel you and unworthy desires break you. Why? Well if you don't have the desire to be enlightened - chances are you aren't going to work towards it. But if you desire wealth, you're never going to get enough and automatically that takes a physical toll and breaks you. 

Each desire is different and can be categorized, yet they have similar characteristics. But the desires I write about today are the unworthy ones. With life bringing us to different paths, roads and streets we often are faced with luring attractions. Attractions that distract you, misguide you and intend to destroy you - and yet they are gifts. How? Well it's quite simple actually. Each desire that you are faced with is a test, a test of your self-control; your discipline and your lessons. If you have learnt your lesson - you temptations will be less if not non-existent towards the attraction. If you are disciplined, you disregard the temptation itself, by letting it go. If you have self-control, it will help you stick to your grounds. 

And what if you haven't got any self-control, discipline, or lessons learnt? Well then, this is your opportunity. Some times we have to lose it in order to find it again, but better this time around. With a thing refused to you, you can either break the rules and go get it anyways - that's quite the rebel way, but it will teach you the lessons you need to learn (but that doesn't mean you should do it just to learn the lessons. If you consciously acknowledge the lessons that need to be learned - you'll learn them anyways. But generally people who are impulsive and unmindful of their actions, use this method as their last resort) or you can be convincing and achieve it. 

Either ways, you'll have something that you know is no good for you and you'll have a bunch of lessons waiting for you. And chances are when you get the thing you desired the most because it was prohibited, will lose it's charm once you've had it long enough. The effect will wear off, be it an object, a drug or a human. If you don't desire something for the right reasons, the tendency of it to ruin you increases ten-folds.  If you can avoid it, you have probably learned your lessons. But if you can't, that's what they are there for and you won't realize it until they've broken you down to an extent where going up is the only way out. You re-build yourself with the awakening that was brought about through that experience. And the awakening is the push that everyone has, at least once in a lifetime and it helps you become who you were meant to be. 

So if you are struggling with desiring the prohibited, just stop. Stop, and think, think about the reasons you desire it. If your reasons are beneficial, the universe will conspire to help you get it. And if your reasons are secondary... you know it will lose it's charm once you have it.

I encourage you to think about those desires that can potentially break you and eventually make you. Can you learn the lessons by acknowledgment or must you learn them the hard way?